I'm determined

Kon-nichiwa mina-san

I have decided to post one of my poems that are dear to me, I guess. I say I guess because all my poems are dear to me and close to my heart. I have a special relationship with them (^_^). If I see my poem posted anywhere else I'll hunt you down, beat you with your own leg, make you eat it and then rip your spine out from your ass. (^_^) Just a friendly warning.Enjoy reading mina-san.

I rose up from the ashes

That day I lay there 

motionless, listless, dead within

my body, decaying, the skin torn, raw, pink

how did I end up here?

Where is this place?

Was it for the weak, the fragile and the irreparable?

I lay there among the ashes

Soaked in their black poison

I struggled with all my might, I had to escape, I had to leave

I was different; I wasn’t as weak as before

I had learnt from my mistakes

 

“I can save you” he whispered in my ear

He whispered those words in an endless rhythm

That voice I grasped onto

It felt like velvet and draped me in reassurance

It was my only hope

My only hope to escape out of this damnéd place

 

That day I lay there

Your image reflected in my tears

You held out your hand I grasped onto it hungrily staining it black

You pulled me from their grasp

They pulled trying to get me back into the dark hole that made me wretch with exhaustion

You never gave up, always pulling me out

Always pulling me out, when I gave up on everything and everyone around me

When it felt like the voice in my head screamed my name in anger

In anger because I pitied myself

It haunted me, turned sweet dreams into crimson filled baths of pity

 

Your strength, your willpower, your determination

I envied you

I had to make you proud

I needed to prove I could be just as strong as my beloved

My hand entwined with yours

You gripped onto my hand that day as if you would lose me again

Your entwined hand with mine

I never gave up