MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Konbanwa mina-san!

Hai, the joyous day has risen upon me! Oh, I've been waiting for this day, I would open my eyes and smell the crisp, freshly wrapped presents awaiting my arrival under the Christmas tree. My day has been uneventful but joyous. Spending quality time with my family and seeing their faces glow when they open Christmas presents is all I need in my life. I received quite a few presents but I knew what I was going to receive because I picked out my own gifts :p. Onii-chans was by far the best, it was the only present that I didn't know of. He bought me silent hill and Tokyo drift, Silent hill is my all time favourite movie. It might not do justice to the game but I love it none the less.

This might be the shortest post I have ever written *gasps*. Oh besides receiving beautiful gifts I have also patched things up with my "bf". He's not going to China for the holidays. I was sad because he won't be able to see his family. He really longs for them. He seems to be opening up to me so that's a plus ne?

Mina-san, please have a joyous and fruitful Christmas. I hope that the year that is about to loom on us will be one filled with luck and many fruitful times (^_^).

Sayonara~

I chu to: the gazette-crying field

8 more days!

Konbanwa mina-san

Yosh! 8 more days! The excitement is unbearable. It's seeping into every pore, coating each nerve in a lather of excitement, ne, Christmas is the BEST time of year. New Years for me is sort of, sad? I don't like welcoming in a new year, I love new beginnings and turning over a new leaf but, it saddens me for some reason. For me new year is another way of reminding one that life is precious and you must treasure it with all your might. *reads over what I just wrote* That sounded so sappy ugh! Anyway, today I bought a new mirror, it might not sound like much but I need to take great fb pictures so, I needed a new mirror :p. I love mirrors ne, I'm not narcissistic just aware of my inner self ehehe. Today, it was so sad, okasa and I go to gym and apparently you have to swipe your card twice every month to prevent your membership from being written off. Ne, well we didn't do that, so today we went to the gym, happy and with a song in our hearts only to be told that our membership is going to be written off.  The guy at the desk said it so nicely we thought he was joking...that ass. So, tomorrow we have to beg the medical aid people. I hate those people they just steal your money.  I hope they don't write our membership off, if they do then, they're a bunch of narcissistic scrunchies that need to be eaten. 

The weather here has been very unpredictable. Well considering I didn't know what season we were in, I would think that. Hollies drain the logic and thoughtful thinking in me. This weather makes me lethargic, I'm so tired ><. The sun is beating me with a smile on its face. Where's winter when I really need it. I call for it all the time but it never comes. This is what happens when your friends with summer, winter hates you after that. I was friends with summer for a month I swear just a month and winter kicked me in the ass. It's so cruel sometimes.

Ne, mina-san that will be all from me today, gomen ne if this post is flaccid I'm pooped today ><

Sayonara~

I chu to: Shiro-chan's insistent talking

Soubi-kun!!

Ohayo gozaimasu mina-san

I think I've fallen for another smexy shounen-ai character. Oh the horror. It use to be Yuki from gravitation (His eyes were captivating) but, now it seems to be Soubi from Loveless. These smexy characters mess with my head during hollies. Loveless isn't the type of anime I would normally watch but, boredom reared its ugly head and I had to choose something fast or else, I would have fallen into a pit of self-pity. The story line doesn't leave an impression on me, it's unrealistic from my point of view. I mean a sixth grader dating a university student? Well supposedly a university student, I'm sure society would have shook its head and jailed poor Soubi-kun. Society is so cruel sometimes. I believe that you cannot help who you fall in love with, regardless of age but, to allow yourself to date a minor and your in your deep thirties, that's just putrid. 

Soubi-kun is still the one for me though, though he's a bit messed up. Seme's are always cool and have a "take no crap from anyone" attitude. That's what I love about them. I love people who stand up for themselves and what they believe in. Nobody has the right to tell you what you can or cannot do except God!

Ne, these hollies have really started to work on my nerves. I'm dreading them. Everything seems monochromatic these days. I guess I'm getting older and, frivolous things such as hollies don't impress me anymore. But, I'm an optimist and refuse to allow this to get mo down! (^_^). I've got an endless supply of energy ehehe.

There will no pics today. Gomen neee. My nails are recovering, so they are in ICU at the moment :p.

Sayonara~

I chu to: my optimism blaring in my ears

10 more days!

Konbanwa mina-san

The countdown begins, to the most joyous time. It's the only time I feel that nothing bad can happen. I love it so much, me and Christmas joined at the hip! Everyone's complaining over here that I have to many Christmas pressies ><. I'm just filling up the spaces underneath the Christmas tree! Well my new years resolution will have to be to get a bf hai, hai! I have a lot of admirers that don't evolve in to them holding my hand ehehe. My "bf" is going to China for the Christmas oh poopie, I'm going to miss him. He's been so busy lately I haven't had time to talk to him. Hopefully he won't visit my blog ne, because then he will know my confession. That wouldn't be to great. Unrequited likeness is a sad thing. I'm use to getting who I usually fall for but, this time it's been tough. He's preoccupied with other things, other than my image swimming in his thoughts. *sigh*. I've tried to up my game, in terms of my nail art. I'm actually looking at scans of various nail art, yay me! I tried my best. Take a look.

ne, I'm not going to apologize for the poopie pictures, I have to make do with this jerk of a camera. Gomen. 

Well mina-san hopefully next year I will have more readers and more comments (^_^)

I chu to: Vamps-Evanescent 

Sayonara~

I'm determined

Kon-nichiwa mina-san

I have decided to post one of my poems that are dear to me, I guess. I say I guess because all my poems are dear to me and close to my heart. I have a special relationship with them (^_^). If I see my poem posted anywhere else I'll hunt you down, beat you with your own leg, make you eat it and then rip your spine out from your ass. (^_^) Just a friendly warning.Enjoy reading mina-san.

I rose up from the ashes

That day I lay there 

motionless, listless, dead within

my body, decaying, the skin torn, raw, pink

how did I end up here?

Where is this place?

Was it for the weak, the fragile and the irreparable?

I lay there among the ashes

Soaked in their black poison

I struggled with all my might, I had to escape, I had to leave

I was different; I wasn’t as weak as before

I had learnt from my mistakes

 

“I can save you” he whispered in my ear

He whispered those words in an endless rhythm

That voice I grasped onto

It felt like velvet and draped me in reassurance

It was my only hope

My only hope to escape out of this damnéd place

 

That day I lay there

Your image reflected in my tears

You held out your hand I grasped onto it hungrily staining it black

You pulled me from their grasp

They pulled trying to get me back into the dark hole that made me wretch with exhaustion

You never gave up, always pulling me out

Always pulling me out, when I gave up on everything and everyone around me

When it felt like the voice in my head screamed my name in anger

In anger because I pitied myself

It haunted me, turned sweet dreams into crimson filled baths of pity

 

Your strength, your willpower, your determination

I envied you

I had to make you proud

I needed to prove I could be just as strong as my beloved

My hand entwined with yours

You gripped onto my hand that day as if you would lose me again

Your entwined hand with mine

I never gave up

13 more days!

Konbanwa mina-san

Can you smell that? Do you smell it? That sweet, joyous atmosphere, draping over you and coating you in a film of excitement. If your wondering why I'm so happy, Christmas is around the corner yipee more shopping and I passed, no surprise there. I shall be entering the final year of my High school career, it's kinda disheartening, I never expected my High school career to reach it's end so soon. Well I guess all bad things have to come to an end. The tension that I was experiencing has decided to go on holiday, thank heavens! I hate tension in all its forms. During the holidays I shall try out as many nail art designs on my nails as possible, so there will be a spamming of pictures.  The pictures won't be as crisp and as fresh as my camera is a jerk and hates me. Okay, so the pics below are just variations of stripes in different colours.

I sincerely apologize for these pictures, in my opinion they are unacceptable, as they are not crispy and fresh but, I have to make do with what I have.

My sister said this one reminded her of ice-cream (>_<)

And last but not least my favourite one.

So mina-san next time I will have more and hopefully more intricate nail scans.

Sayonara~

I chu to: Florence and the machine-raise it up

Please just fly by

Konbanwa mina-san

As the tension starts to increase I realize in the end there is nothing I can do to change or alter my imperfect marks on my report card. I tell myself this though it's easier said than done. I miss the carefree days of my childhood where frivolous things such as receiving your report card was a mere blotch in your mind. I need to relax more. All this tension, just lessens my lifespan and causes wrinkles ><. That won't be a good look ne. Okasa has gone to some theater production I miss her so much, my heart is crying out for her. Hopefully Friday will come sooner than I hope, because I can't handle this suspense anymore. The suspense is killing me. 

Sayonara~

I chu to: the sound of the insistent television talking 

Tension drags me down like a concrete slab under water

Kon-nichiwa mina-san

First of all let me start by saying I really need to rake in more readers, visiting my blog and getting greeted by the zero comment banner isn't appealing anymore. I need to do so much work on this blog, but no doubt I am getting there slowly but surely. Secondly, I've been so tense lately, though it's hollies, we are due to receive our end of year report card on Friday. So the tension is due to that. Fudge you tension. Tension is not a good thing, I'm trying to d-tensify myself by keeping myself busy, I just hope Friday will rear it's ugly head so I can receive the bile laced report card. Report cards are such a nuisance they cause unnecessary tension and stress. Okasa is worrying about me which I hate, whenever I get tensed she starts to worry about me, I'm perfectly fine it's the suspense that's killing me, that's all :p. Tension aside, I recently heard Gazette's new album before I decay. I'm not a fan of Before I decay, but Mayakashi is absolutely sound worthy. I do not know why but recently Gaze's songs make me feel nostalgic, I love them to bits. Whenever I'm down Gaze have been there to uplift me (^_^). Ne, the other problem I have to deal with on this blog is the lack of pictures...I have to little. Nee-chans blog seems to be overflowing with pictures and mine are starters. So that problem has to be adressed.

Well that's all from me mina-san

Sayonara~

I chu to: the sound of my impending sanity

I need to go back to my hometown!

Konbanwa mina-san

While I am on my quest to become an ulzzang, I have received some disturbing news. It's so disturbing my insides almost ate themselves o.o. Okay, well I'm exaggerating a little bit, a teeny tiny bit. My father, bless that awesome man, has decided to visit our hometown on the 29th. It might not sound like a big deal, but for me it is. School starts on the 13th for me and the 29th is just to late and there is a possibility my brother might not be able to come with, which is disheartening. There is no point of visiting if we leave the 29th it's to late. Sometimes my father is so stubborn, and the only reason we are leaving on the 29th is, there won't be a manager the previous days forcing us to leave this late. It sucks, but at least we will be visiting my splendid, funfilled, hometown I can't wait. The weather has been so unpredictable here, it's December and it's fudging 30 degrees here ><. At night a thunderstorm interrupts my thoughts and during the day the joyous sun snatches my ice-cream away from me.  Ja ne, this year has gone fast, which is a good thing the year was to stressful, I could barely keep my head above the assignments and tests we received at school. 

Next time I'll upload more pics of my talon beauties

Sayonara~

I chu to: Tommy Heavenly6-2Bfree

Holidays have approached me...AGAIN!

Ohayo Gozaimasu mina-san

This has been the only day where I haven't had to open a textbook and learn about the non-sensical writings of a maniac. Oh the joy as I lunge myself into the depths of the unknown ><. Oh well, at least I write this Thursday 2nd language ugh, it's such a waste of time. and it's my last paper for the year *rejoices* hopefully I own it hehe. Since I've been bored with my long talons I'm getting "creative" usually I would just put nail art on them to make them pretty but, I've decided I can just do it myself, take a look: They're not that good though I wanted to do stripes....and I ended up with one stripe on my nails (>_<). I don't know how those nail professionals do it but, trying to make your nails look good takes a lot of time and effort which I seem to be lacking. Well nail art always makes your nails look good even if they look like poopie. During the holidays I'm going to cut my hair I'm so excited I'm going to get the Asian mullet cut but, my layers aren't going to be that short or else my hair will stand up poofy like I spritz it with something/it will look like candy-floss....not a good look. 

Anyway I'll most probably update every day if I get the time....but I'll try and search for it (>_<)

Sayonara~

Yummy desserts and bubble tea

Kon-nichiwa mina-san

Exams officially kicked my butt! But that's okay since I bribed them with desserts, they love desserts! Hai, November exams are so mean, they love taunting me ><. I need to get at least 76 or 77% for November exams aggregate. Last term for June I got 75% I was a bit disappointed because I wanted to get higher. I'm at a stage where I feel that whatever happens, happens, so if I don't get accepted into medicine, it was never meant to be. I know it sounds like I'm giving up but, my determination is a slither in a piece of cake, it's almost non-existent. It's getting tough to keep my ahead above water but I won't give up that easily, my determination might be lacking but my spirit is still in the fight. If I don't get accepted into medicine I'm going to study microbiology. I'm going to study virology yum yum hehe. Enough of that, okasa went to China mart without me...note the without part, but she bought awesome gifts. Do you want to take a peak? And drool over the gifts I received :p. Here, take a look:

Since I'm such a nail freak my beautiful okasa bought me nail art, it was a good buy since it didn't cost that much I haven't tried it out though once I have I'll upload pics of what my beauties look like.

For all of you that don't know I'm pretty childish so the first thing I told okasa to buy was glow sticks....*sigh* I love glow sticks they bring back good memories of my childhood. Since my camera was being a jerk I couldn't upload a close up of the two teddy bears, the things that look like rabbits and the nail art sequence. I really need to get a new camera. The light brown teddy is a phone charm and the dark brown teddy is a keyring. The two things that look like rabbits are key rings which I should probably give to my future boyfriend....wherever he may be :p. 

That's all from me for now.

P.S: comments are fuel, I need it to survive and poor petulant fairy needs it to.

Sayonara

Last days of holiday

Kon-nichiwa mina-san!

GUESS WHAT!! GUESS WHAT!!! I passed my learners! Woohoo! A round of applause ladies and gentelmen to the wonderful Ayaka-chan! ehehe, well I still don't see the point of driving so, for now I will act intrested and tell okasa I really want to drive and can't wait to be independant :p. Pretty lame but I'm getting a car in the end so might as well go with the flow ne? Hai, last days of holidays not that I'm surprised, half the holiday period I had to fudging study so I never had much of a holiday *sob sob*. This will probably be the last post that I send until the hollies sneak up on me again and present me with scrumptious gifts :D. Hmm, Onii-chan finally got a job I'm so glad he's been working on my nerves lately, pulling them out one by one (just joking), he's just been a diva lately, I want to punch him and tell him to get a life and away from me. Sometimes he's just unreasonable but I guess all siblings are like that from time to time. Eto, I still haven't received a response from the magazine I submitted my poem to, so I guess I didn't win the competion *sniff sniff* well things happen for a reason. Recently, I have a new found urge to buy lotsa nail polish and I mean loads! It's become an addiction, makes me happy lol. Well this is my fill for the day.

Sayonara

P.S: *gives cookies and scrumptious gifts :p*

Shiro-chan!!

Kon-nichiwa mina-san!

First day of my monotonous holiday. It seems holiday's are becoming a nuisance, I just can't seem to find something to entertain myself with besides blogging. I'm going for my learners on the 29th I'm so nervous, I shouldn't be since I don't want to drive a car and secondly I just don't care, but if I happen to not pass I'll probably jump into a black hole and hope for better days ehehe. Learning to drive and all things fruity just doesn't interest me, if I had an interest in driving it would be much easier to study the greek symbols on the glossy pages, but alas i'm content with my okasa driving me around, but she's getting fed up with me telling her where to go, so I have to become mobile. Atleast my Shiro-chan is there to build up my spirits :D, and if everyone at this point is confused to who Shiro-chan is, he's one of the guitarist to the awesome v-kei band the gazette. Hai, I'm married to him ya know :p haha I wish but a kawaii, hello kitty fan, girl can dream can't she? He's replaced my love for Aki-chan. I don't know why but he's just so much more mysterious and he always finds a way to pierce through me with those menacing eyes hmm. I hope that whoever visits my wonderful/weird blog still finds my posts intriguing

Sayonara~

P.S: Don't forget my fairy needs food, comments feed her~

Ja na,

I'm alive!!!

Konnichiwa mina-san~

It's been a long and dreadful term. Well atleast I survived it in the end. I'm actually looking forward to exams so that I can study at home, school is too hectic and stressful for me. Gomen I've been away for so long but I had so many tests and projects to complete I couldn't keep up, and ontop of that I FINALLY found a cute guy at my school, oh the joy! School has just started becoming interesting hehe. He's really sweet from what I've heard but I know his brother so it shouldn't be too hard to talk to him ne? It's just that he's uber shy....I'm going to have to work on that. While I've been away I've started entering into poetry competitions so hopefully somebody out there in the anime filled world will recognise me in some way or atlest give recognition....which I know they don't do. I'll just try harder until I get published again. Hopefully during the holidays I will be able to update more instead of just updating every full moon ugh! Hopefully whoever  happens to stumble upon my blog finds my posts read worthy and intriguing.

Sayonara mina-san~

Back from bliss

Kon-nichiwa mina-san!!
I've returned from my somewhat fruitful holiday. I have to say, at times it seemed as if the day would never end, it just dragged it's sluggish feet and taunted me.  But overall it was a pleasant holiday, and as I promised I have come bearing gifts of my sightseeing. Hai, hai let the slide show begin.

This is what the harbour looks like in Cape Town. Cape Town was the place I went to on sweet
holiday bliss. This snapshot was taken at the V & A Waterfront. This is the place where most
of the rich mongrel's "hang out".

A choir singing in the courtyard. Most choir's sing in the courtyard to gain popularity. The courtyard is an  excellent location to gain popularity if your in a band that is starting out or
a musician that wants to be recognised by the public.

The restaurants always serve delicious and taste worthy food. But their quite heavy on the wallet, so I suggest eating out at one of these restaurants if you want to impress a loved one.

And of course the well known Table Mountain. I love this mountain it makes me feel nostalgic, whenever I feel hurt or depressed I look at this mountain. It's as if it washes me with
reassurance, and tells me that everything thing will be okay.

Not a "wow" mall, but it's better than nothing. It only consists of 2 levels. The 2nd level has about 6 shops and the 1st level houses the most.

This is what the mall looks like from the outside. Gomen ne I didn't take a pic of the interior. I
promise next time I will.

And lastly the Huguenot Tunnel. It really reeks in their! It smells like cars and death. The petrol
fumes are intoxicating in that tunnel.
This is the end of my slide show mina. I hope you enjoyed viewing my sightseeing wonders.
This will be the last post until holiday's call me again and summon me to start posting again. Comments feed me and we shall meet again at the wonderful place of happiness.
Sayonara~
moof moof~~

~posting abit early~

Gomen ne mina-san!
I don't think i'm willing to post tomorrow...or let's say I won't have time or will either have gone
into an excitement coma, before I reach the computer. Hai, my holiday has crept up on me and
has surprised me with sweets and a deliciously, scrumptious cake ehehe. Once I have returned from my trip I will most definitely post pics of my sightseeing. The other item I would say I
can't wait to be released is the gazettE new album DIM!! Hai, hai. I'm sure it will not disappoint
any of the gaze fans, and gaze must work very hard to produce a sound worthy album. Hmph!
I should pack early, I can't wait I'm overflowing with excitement hehe.
Sayonara~
moof moof~

D.L.D- Dark Long Day

Konbanwa Mina-San!

Dark Long Day indeed! It's been so cold for the past couple of days I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I love the cold don't make any mistake about that, after all I was born in winter. But when the cold threatens to slow down all human processes and leave me disabled I say 
enough is enough. Four more days 
until I'm on a joyous family trip. Oh the excitement, it's seeping 
through every pore in my body =).
I can't wait it's going to be the epitome of...well excitement. I will most probably update on Friday again just before I leave on sweet holiday. I can hear it already, holiday is calling my name and I'm responding to the calling. Hai day was long, too long for my liking. Two problems that
 arose were, number 1: I couldn't function properly AT ALL. Whenever ogasa told me something and asked me what she had said, I gave her an information over lode look. She gave up on me after a while though and returned her attention to my brother. Number 2: it was agonizingly slow it felt like somebody 
had compressed the entire week into one day. Agony is really a cruel person, I hope nobody meets her one day. She's the embodiment of evil. She first mocks and taunts you, then slaps you in the face because you allowed yourself to be consumed into her sick, twisted game.
If you ever meet her my magic fairy might help you! ^.^ Just ask her for assistance,
depending on her mood she might or might not offer assistance hehe.
I hope you've enjoyed this entry as much as I have enjoyed writing it!
Sayonara~
moof moof~~

Lady Ayaka's first post!!

Konbanwa mina!
Hai my first blog entry as a new, aspiring blogger. Hopefully my writing skills will keep everyone entertained and intrested enough to visit my blog again. As this is my introductory post i should probably introduce myself: Ohayyo! My name as you can see above this post is Ayaka, i'm infatutated with Japan and all it's awesomness. Currently school is eating me up alive and spitting me out when it is time to go home. It's engulfing me and suppressing my spirits ah ne but I will get through it!! Yosh! I love the gazettE and their quirkiness, I find them abit weird though >.<. My favourite member out of all five members would have to be....Suzuki Akira! I love Aki-chan!! He's too cute, trying to be tough he he. But my second favourite would definitely be Uruha-kun his instrumental ability makes me green with envy. I play the piano...ugh what can I say about it, it's an  instrument that torments and grants you happiness when it decides too. But I guess that happens if you don't practice for at least 4 hours on those ivory keys. I'm an aspiring writer and poet. I've published a few things already but those were mediocre items.Hopefully somebody will spot my talent and want to publish 
me. *starts searching*.  I hope this post will intrigue everyone enough to read my next blog entry and don't forget if you have a question or any queries ask the magic fairy of petulance she will certainly help you. ~Sayonara~

moof moof~~